Last night was great, Raymond and I celebrated his birthday early because my mom's big operation happens to fall on his actual birthday, so we decided that it would be better if we did it before-hand because i don't know how much time i will have that day to be with him. We had an amazing night... we went to this restaurant called Ricardo's Place and I had a coffee with Tequila in it but it just tasted like hot tequila. Ray had the mariachi's play my oh-so-timely favorite "Feliz Navidad", and then tipped them in awe and appreciation for their talent and knowledge of the lyrics to that classic. Then we went to the grocery store to pick up some Wild Vine (i think i needed to drink because i am stressed), and a mini-cake (which went untouched until this evening). Then we proceeded back to his house to open presents, watch the axl documentary that i purchased for him on the dvd player that i purchased for him... oh yeah. Ray absorbed it like a sponge, whilst I laid sleepy to his left. All in all it was a great night, for both of us. I am glad he enjoyed himself as much as I did... I think that as we grow older we just grow better together.

Lets see... yesterday I woke up to little Jose on my bed saying "I like the Gato! I like the Gato! Can I have him because I like Gatos!" and I was like "christ almighty not only do i have a hairy quadroped on my bed, but i also have a juvenile spanish speaking midget here too... good morning to me!"
today... i went to shopping with my mom and ran into Tyler from tower, he looks way different.. who knows... i might too. i think it has been over a year and a half since i had seen him, or anyone from there for that matter... wow. probably for the best though.
the future holds... my moms operation, my birthday in 10 days, rays actual birthday, maybe even a job search... who knows...

all i know is that... i don't think i have ever been more ok, with what is going on in my life that i am now...

goodnight.